Growing Up / F*ck-Up Insurance

“My mistakes do happen on a grand scale and very public level. They’re humiliating, embarrassing. But if nothing bad happens to you, you’ll just continue to act ridiculous.”
— Christian Slater, USA Today, December 14, 1997


Sometimes, I have too much going on in my brain to stick to one or two topics, or even tie a bunch of ideas together to equal one main topic.  So usually, I just keep my fingers to myself and wait for a better time to write.  But today, I’m letting go and allowing for a completely different blog experience.

The past few hours, I’ve spent studying “Integrating anatomy and treatment,”  a book to further prepare massage therapists for the national exam.   The question of the year seems to be:  “when will you be finished?”  The 600 hours at massage school have left me scratching my head; I’ll say the school was mediocre at tying everything together & just leave it at that.  So now it’s hours and hours of self-study, which is alright by me, just time consuming.

I am 29.  The clock is no longer ticking; a resounding pounding radiates through my very core.  The number ’30’ doesn’t bother me so much; I don’t believe the 20s are the ‘best time of ones life.”   (Unless they are now married w/ kids.)

No, for me, the 20s were a time for colossal screw-ups.

  • 75% of my relationships were abusive in one way or another.
  • I dated but had no clue what I wanted from a relationship.
  • My job was 10+ years of dead-end boredom (save for a few years of international work) ; the workload increased but my salary barely budged.
  • I went at least $15,000 in credit card debt, w/ nothing to show for it.
  • I have no real estate.
  • When I screwed up, I did it in a big way (like getting arrested),  and everyone found out about it.  I can only imagine what my god-fearing extended family truly thinks of me.  hehe.

Well isnt that a heart-warming list?


But here’s the good thing:  the 30s will BE SO MUCH BETTER.  The list of grievances serves as concrete insurance.  I’ve learned a lot from it:

  • I know what behavior I will and will not accept from friends and relationships.
  • I learned how important it is to end dysfunctional relationships.
  • I realized that a desk job is not for me, and  what type of career is right for me.
  • I developed keen communication skills and sharp intuitive perception
  • I learned credit cards are more dangerous than automobiles or guns

And that’s just the cliff notes.

One Comment Add yours

  1. Lana says:

    I loved your line about how people say “Your 20s are the best times of your life” only if they’re married and have kids. Heh.

    I really think institutions WANT you to believe that it’s just “so simple.” Colleges or schools would be out of business if they REALLY laid it out to students how hard it will be to get a job, WITH OR WITHOUT a college education. It’s tough out there. Hell, students would bail right away and they’d be out of the THOUSANDS of dollars colleges grab off of them if they only realized that a college degree doesn’t guarantee a better or worse job. Just debt.

    We’re the debt generation. Sucks.

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